56 up

"56up" is a marvelous British series filming several kids since they were 7 and continued every 7 years. In the 3 hour-long series, we see how the 56 year-olds are and have been doing. It's really something, watching their points of view changed as their faces did, their aspiring grew or dissipated and all the ups and downs of their lives rolled on in front of you. I regard this as a sharing of experience that I've been longing for. Since I was a child, I have been extremely aware of the passing of time. Sometimes I panicked with the thought that someday I'll have to die. Aging is horrifying to me. And the horror didn't ever go away. In fact, at 21, a phase where I'm confronting decision of future career, oftentimes I feel I can't ever find a way out. These people in the show, are glowing with wisdom, to me. All of them is not wealthy, politically powerful nor famous but almost all of them are satisfied with what they have. Almost all of them look happy. I noticed how content they look when it comes to friends and family and that kind of untie a knot in my heart. I guess that's how life is- you might bear a big dream in you, no matter how far you go with that dream, you have to learn to enjoy every minute and take in every scene of your life at last. Look around to see what you have and appreciate those. Nothing prepares you for life; only life prepares you for itself- as one of the participants said. I think that's absolutely true. I don't know what I'll encounter in the future and there's no use worrying. Now I've seen getting old isn't  that miserable, I believe with the cases I've seen I am now brave enough to set out to see what the world is like. Don't make myself regret and eventually I'll be looking back gratefully.